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The Art of Ink: My First Tattoo

Art is highly interpretative and as equally subjective. There is an art to the way that art itself is created. How do you capture what you only envision? How do you portray what you only feel? How do you describe what doesn’t exist? Art inspires me as much as music does. It provides an avenue of escape for the expressionist side of my personality.

I had always wanted to get a tattoo. Seeing that it was a permanent (though there are removal techniques) art piece that would be displayed permanently on my body, there had to be a meaning behind it. I didn’t want the random tramp stamp, however sexy that may be. As with others who have done the same, I decided to chronicle events that have affected my life in some major way. What better canvas than your skin to tell the story of your life? You can read (if you’re really bored) the impetus for the tattoo below. This work is done in remembrance to those who have been in my life. For better or worse, each one has had a hand in shaping the person I am today.
Initial Concept Design
As with most of my sketches, they go stages and revisions. What was originally going to be a work in progress (it was to be done in stages that was never really going to be finished) ended up being a complete piece. I didn’t want to have an unfinished work inked on my arm, and then have to explain what why that is and what it means. I only had 2 criteria: It had to be simple and symbolic.

It took me about 2 months from initial concept to the final design. As the design changed, so did the meaning of the tattoo. The work is broken down into 3 panels. Starting from the left, each representing the past, present, and future. The past is dark and painful, but life goes on. The present is a new day, but the past is still lingers with you. The future is unknown, bright, and full of hope. Life is too short to dwell on the past. Learn to live, love, and laugh.

A Piano & A Poem

Sketching is probably one of my more well known time wasters. I’ll doodle all day long as my mind wanders from topic to topic. It doesn’t matter if the sky is falling around me, I’m in my own lil world when I sketch. I also find solace in writing poetry and playing music. I was never versed at communicating my emotions verbally. Choosing the right words to say at the right moment was always difficult for me. I found that writing it down allowed me to capture my emotions in a more refined eloquence.

Something that I hated doing as a teen was playing the piano. Something that I love doing now (as a semi-adult) is playing the piano. Funny how that works out, right? I can’t play very well, but I do find time to sit down and learn new songs. This song is a cover of One Republic’s Apologize. The poem was written in November 2007 and were meant to compliment the lyrics of the original song. So you get a glimpse of the softer side of gvV@ki3 today.

(One Republic…)
I’m holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground
I’m hearing what you say, but I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me, then you go and cut me down
You tell me that you’re sorry, didn’t think I’d turn around

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it’s nothing new
I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you’d say, sorry, like the angel heaven let me think was you

(gvV@ki3…)
I’m trying to find a reason, trying to find a way, a rhyme
How do I put away, four years worth of time, behind
I put you on a pedestal, I made you my queen
I gave you everything I had, left nothing in between

I guess that wasn’t enough, and you just wanted more
You picked your stuff up and left, while I watched from my door
I don’t know what happened, tell me what went wrong
How did it go from “I love you,” to “see you later, so long”

Where’s the ring, the one that was on your delicate hand
Is it trash now, thrown away into the bedside nightstand
How did you just turn off all those emotions that you feel
Why am I still drowning, when none of this was ever real

Standing aside, waiting for you to find someone new
Laying here alone, still madly in love with you
Do you think I’d be happy, waiting in the background
Just to watch you walk away, never to turn around

There comes a certain time, when you have to decide
From the beginning, I’m the one always by your side
I can’t fight for us forever, you just want to let go
Figure out what you want, because only you really know

Until then, this is the beginning of the end
You will decide, do we start over and make amends
Or do we say goodbye, and toss our history aside
And just give it all up, without giving it a second try